To feel happy, to express authenticity and to find
your true self…
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it all starts with self love
About Ellie
" My first experience of breathwork was deep and profound - I connected to the birth experience of my son, some 17 years earlier. I had a really challenging, medicalised birth - and even though it made sense in my mind - and he was born safe and well - subconsciously I felt like my body had failed me. I felt like I'd run a marathon, was knocked out then woke up at the finishing line to champagne and congratulations - but the cyle felt totally incomplete.
As I breathed, I felt the connecting of the dots - a completing of the circle... physically and emotionally. I sobbed, big heaving sobs, accompanied by a felt sense of deep compassion for my body, not just for that but for all the years I'd been so hard on myself. And as I surrendered into the exhale, I birthed the sense of loss and incompletion. It melted away.
So, If I was still holding onto this - then what else was I going to be able to release? I was hooked. I knew this was my medicine."
I found breathwork after years of trying to ‘out think’ my challenges.
As a passionate communicator, you’d imagine that ‘self expression’ comes naturally.. But it’s not always been the case.
Growing up, seeking the acceptance/praise for being ‘a good girl’, I learnt to become a gifted people pleaser. In my 20’s the unhealed parts of myself were running the show - yet at the same timeI held a deep belief that I was supposed to make a difference but didn’t know how.
But it was in my mid 30’s after we moved back to Poole after 17 years in London, that I started experiencing panic attacks and a deep sense of wanting to eject out of my skin but didn’t know where to start..
I can’t describe the relief when I started working with a therapist who said - ‘I wasn’t a reliable witness’. I don’t want you to do anything until we’ve gone through the therapy process - then if you have to I’ll guide you every step of the way. It turned out my struggles weren’t about anyone else - ‘they’ were ME.
What followed was a messy and beautiful awakening. But most importantly, I found movement practices, meditation and breathwork - I found a way back INTO to my body, through breath and most importantly I rebuilt the trust and confidence in myself - and learnt how to regulate my nervous system. I also learned how to trust and work with my intuition.
I slowly began to get more comfortable being more open and honest about my feelings, dreams and desires. My relationship got stronger, it helped me to communicate more openly and honestly with my family and it helped me to have more authentic friendships. It also led me to get in touch with my creativity and self expression.
My greatest desire is to share my experiences and help you find a deeper connection to yourself, whatever your age or life stage. To find the healing and compassion to be with - and welcome - all parts of yourself.
I’ve been teaching and practicing this method for 6 years and have worked with thousands of people over the years one to one, in groups, in businesses and at festivals and have 900+ hours teaching experience. I’m also part of the creative team at Wellbeing by The Lakes wellness festival in Dorset, leading large group breathwork experiences and co hosting the stage with Nareen El Mariesh.